Poetry Book no I – ACT I

Poetry book no. 1. ACT 1 Background, blue butterflies, spiders and spiderwebsOmg, omg, omg !!! Finally, after so many years of dreaming… You know, the kind when you lay in the bed just imagining… making up worlds and places. Do people still do that? I can surely say that I have spent the majority of my life daydreaming, being told that it was in vain… But well, I can now say that I do have a poetry book.

I must confess, it is not in the format I had originally imagined it to be. Why? Because rather than traditionally publishing it to fulfill the dream. I published it on my blog and streaming services for free… Didn’t think that I would ever show my voice, so audiobooks were a surprise for me too… For so far I had only sung or recited poems into the void of my solitude. When nobody was around to judge.  However… I truly, well… kind of… am happy with it.

Happy enough for the first book.

About the Book

I must confess that a few of those poems I wrote for real people… Which ones, I will leave to be a mystery but as a hint… Somewhere at the beginning and the end. Others are fiction depicting a woman going mad over a love she couldn’t hold close to her chest. It is completely over romanization to suit the story of being somewhere between love and madness, an unrequited love leading to obsession.

I think heartbreak is a natural phenomenon and so I just put all of my past feelings into it and tried to make it bigger. In the past, I have been viciously broken and very sad over a lover leaving. So this book is like, a pinch of my experiences… But not really. Isn’t writing lying and making things bigger? Not always. But here it is. It a fiction, with real feelings. And a few poems that don’t lie.

Also, I was sad because I couldn’t upload every poem separately because of the length issues… It is barely even 10 minutes of listening time. The poems are too short to be uploaded separately… But they do tell a story in 20 of them separated into ACT I and ACT II.

Here, in this post…

Here, you can find the Spotify link for those who would like to hear my voice or find it cool to listen to while reading. And the poems themselves of course. By the end of December, I will try to have the lyric videos up on YouTube too. Currently, my previous book of 10 six-sentence stories is in the making.

In this act, I have focused on the beginning of the story up to the breaking point. 

Playing as I edit the post for final edits: SKYND.

ACT I Track List 

ACT I track list

Poetry Book pt. 1.

Here they are! 

In the Beginning

In the dim flickering light

Of the oil lamp on my bedside table

I am,

Drunken on wine

Thoughts about him

Which intoxicates me more

I can not tell

But I grip onto a quill,

As if,

Writing poetry about him…

Was my only savior

a Fire Was Lit in Her Heart

And I wish,

That my poetry was a flammable fluid

With words spilling from my fingertips

The smell of petroleum

The light of a match

Set his world

On fire.

and She Feared Him Fading



I wrote a poem

Crippled by my fear,

That he will fade

Into the cruel passing of time



Like my admiration



Ten feet under

So She Wrote a Poem

So, can you see now…

That I have lost my mind?

The sea of emotion has swallowed me whole

And oh sweet mother of mine

Can you tell?

Your daughter,

Doesn’t want to emerge

Mother, Look at Her

His eyes.


If that was not poetry.


Written in two words…






With a Prayer on Her Lips

Here I lay,

In the darkness of my room

Praying to all the Gods that I know…

That someday,



We can meet each other…

And have conversations,

Drunken on wine

Her Lust Arose

And maybe,

We could…


Share a kiss,

Or two


Let our worlds,


Dearest Mother, She Is Going To See Him

Dearest mother,

Today I did my face


And garishly

My cheeks the colour of peonies

And my face pale from fear

My eyes swollen from the arsenic…

I haven’t slept in days

Petrified, Avoiding His Eyes


I stood there…

My garments drenched

Just like when I was a child,

Standing barefoot in our garden

With rain falling down my skin


Deluged by poetry untold

Choking on words

I could not make rhyme

With Belladonna in Hers

Like a maiden in love,

With my eyes glistening

In the lights above my head

As if he was the belladonna to my pupils

I was a deer caught in headlights…

And he was

The definition

Of poetry

How The Poetry Book Was Made

Some of these poems I wrote years ago, I have just fit them into one book to tell a new kind of a story.

Everything was written and recorded from the comfort of my bedroom, not a perfect setting at all. But it is what I have to work with. I have severe anxiety of singing and talking/voice-acting  in front of other people. As awkward as it is… I didn’t always have it. It happened somewhere in my youth.  I am dealing with it and hopefully I will be able to do it soon.


The microphone I used was a Shure SM58.

I want to update to a ribbon Goldenage MK III as this would make my voice a little softer. I have trouble with whistles in my voice which are really hard to remove. Perhaps am not good enough yet. I swear I have a good placement for the mic and I have sung before…

The audio interface I used was a Yamaha AG03, one that really needs to be swapped out.

It is good for podcasts and was cheap like the scarlet… But I also sing for a project (metal, includes screaming vocals). In the future I want an Apollo Twin X. That would truly be nice. My mate could use it for his music as long as he gets his RME and I could have good quality recordings. 

I used Reaper to record and mix everything. This was my second book to do audio editing on. I am still learning and make a lot of mistakes, am sure. Really… found a lot of errors on my last book. I just wanted to do everything myself and learn as I go. I know, I know… it doesn’t start from perfection… this too is a skill I have to hone. Perhaps I am a little too impatient with myself.

Thank you for your time.

Extra and Extra Marketing 

I also make lyric videos for my stories. I have only three currently but am working on the books now. As I recently started making them. I want to get to the point that for future releases I would have them out sooner. This was also my first time making lyric videos. I use Adobe Premiere Pro, whit picture ones I designed the background myself with Canva… But for the ones with the video behind the letters, I downloaded the video from here-MixKit.co. You can find thousands of sounds and videos here under the MixKit license.

Videos are on my YouTube Channel and here on my blog. If you like them you can hit me up and I could do them for you too, for a small fee since am not a pro yet.

My first full book ever can also be found on my blog and was a collection of short six-sentence stories.

Also, on my Ko-Fi page, I have wallpapers, for free downloads, for supporters, and… for ko-fi monthly subscribers/supporters, I have templates to use as they will. Yes, some of it contains my book covers and wallpapers but I aspire to add some unique ones there too. Also, this is the way to support me and help me create even more and better content.


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